I finally have a little time to update the weblog….

I finally have a little time to update the weblog. I feel somewhat confused these days. A lot of things are going on, at more than one front. After the positive experience with the Open house in church, there seems to be something of a setback. Or maybe things start to develop right now. Positive developments are the proposal to do some kind of a collective retreat later this year in the context of the ‘purpose driven church‘, and the upcoming ‘re-animation’ of cellgroups. We have had those in the past, but the last couple of years one by one they disappeared. Most of the people are enthousiastic about the new initiative, so that’s promising. But, there is a negative side also. Last Sunday it struck me how hard it is to really get people to move. There seems to be a ‘blanket’ over the congregation that makes people stay in their seats. The sermon was on opening the eyes of your heart, but there was no response whatsoever on this afterwards. At least, that’s how I feel about it.

Another thing is that we recently found out that some of us are really are in great difficulty; spiritually, psychic, relationwise… Of course we knew about situations, but it may be even worse than we thought.

Mira and I are still struggling with the question what to do this summer: we moved to Almere last year December, and we actually want to end up finding a church there. Because of our involvement in a couple of things in church, we decided to stay untill this summer to hand over responsibilities. But now the time comes close, the decision is hard to make. We committed ourselves yesterday to pray for this diligently over the next few days or weeks, just as long as we need to get an answer. Do we still have a task in Amsterdam? Can we make a difference, would it make a difference if we would stay? Can we grow spiritually if we stay? What happens when we leave? Those are very basic questions, and the answer is not easy.

Well, just felt I should share my heart…