I just read my Twitter entry from Monday, saying that I felt physically miserable but spiritually okay. It would be too much to say that I now feel spiritually miserable, but I certainly feel shaken due to a number of things happening these last few days. Some of them are really good: the barbecue, strengthening friendships, installing a new team leader in Rotterdam, meeting new inspiring people like Jan Wolsheimer from the ‘Prayer Shop‘ in Woerden. And some of the things happening are outright bad. Monday news came in that someone was killed in a fight just a couple of streets from our house. It turned out to be the stepfather of classmates of both Rosa and Sara. Then we heard that a neighbour (that we just got to know a little bit better these last few months) was put into hospital with a terminal illness. And yesterday my dad was diagnosed with a tumor in his back. He is in radiotherapy at this very moment.
Matters of life and death. They leave me thinking, wondering, pondering. Is there any significance in the timing of these things? Should I change my priorities in order to be able to spend more time with my parents, with the neighbours, at school? How do these things fit in Gods plan, how will He be glorified in it? And how does all this tie in with the things I discovered and experienced this summer – the total freedom in Jesus Christ, the love of God, the significance of prayer?
Part of me says I really don’t know, and part of me says that I do know. Maybe I’m even experiencing the supernatural peace that is mentioned in Philippians 4 right now. So, if you can: join me in praying. God is able to do exceedingly abundantly more than we can ask for, according to his power that is at work in us.